Cancel 2020

This has been an interesting year thus far, I  was excited to start the decade with a list of goals: getting my business off the ground, intensifying my workout plans and balancing my career with my business. At the close of 2019, I wrote down all the good and bad things that have happened the past 10 years. It was quite reflective to show how I have progressed financially, spiritually and mentally. One of my recent plans was to travel more, so I had three trips planned this past year to Jamaica, Santa Marta, Colombia and Mexico for my personal self care as a mom. Then 2020 happened with COVID-19 pandemic. It impacted the whole world with the death of hundreds of thousand people. My job requires me to work from home so I had to teach my students via virtual learning while I tended to my toddler son and that was hectic. I really learned what it takes to be a stay at home mom and kudos to all of you. My vision of being a stay at home mom was my son being in daycare while I get to do all the things I want to do. Part of the 2020 intrigues is having to emotionally deal with police brutality, systemic racism and killing of black men currently happening. It began to take a toll on me. I felt like I was on a roller coaster of emotions from depression and sadness. It just was overwhelming and not motivating. I couldn’t continue to watch news of mournful events. 

I had to turn to my spirituality to pray, read my devotion and talk to my therapist to keep me encouraged, focused and moving forward. That has really helped me and being positive and not surrounding myself with negativity. I had even stopped posting on social media and working on my goals but now that we have less than 6 months left in the year. I am even more determined to finish this year strong and be the best that I can be. Though 2020 has been a tumultuous year, I have learned many life lessons such as being able to slow down and not rush. I was always on the go. It has made me grow even closer with my son even though he drives me crazy. He always makes me laugh. Also to not stress and just go with the flow because everything will work out eventually. I know I will have my days but as the saying goes, the good outweighs the bad.